What a week

Well with only a week and a half left to go; leave it to my body to malfunction. Monday I strained my foot and now I am very limited on my workout routine. I am so disappointed in my body; here I am trying to move forward and get healthy, and my knee goes out one week, my shoulder last week, and now my foot...what is next? I can still do Pumptime on Monday and Tuesday, Yoga will be ok next week, but the cardio is going to have to wait because I can't have any high impact on the foot. I could try swimming next week? It's just so frustrating that I am always taking one step forward and two steps back; I feel like Paula Abdule!

So last week I only worked out a couple of days, and this week I will only make it to two classes. Next week is the last week of boot camp, and I have not come close to meeting my goal. I am really trying hard not to get discouraged because I have entered a life of movement, and I know I have lost some inches and gained muscle tone, so I keep thinking about that. BUT, why haven't I lost any weight? I haven't been eating terrible, I do give myself free days, and I haven't cut out sweets entirely, but with all of the added exercise I should have at least dropped a couple of pounds.

So I need to make an action plan! I would really like to take some cooking classes, does anyone know where I can do that? I want to learn how to cook healthy food, and possibly break the cycle of junk food in this house. How can I get my son and boyfriend to eat healthy, so that it will be easier for me to eat healthy? It's so easy to stop at McDonalds and grab a happy meal, or order a pizza when I am running low on energy or time. When school starts I will have even less time to prepare healthy meals. Does anyone want to trade for cooking classes??

A dear friend said something to me yesterday that really struck a chord with me. She said, "you have your emotions in a cage, and if it's not in your plans to have certain emotions then you don't let them out without a note from mom" (Or something like that). I do keep my emotions in check, and under control, and I am really good at holding them in. I would like to be more outspoken about my feelings, especially at home, but I don't really know how to communicate them without an explosion. I do feel like if I can just be honest with my feelings, and learn how to let go....I will drop the excess baggage; the extra weight will fall off. I guess I feel like negative emotions should not be expressed because I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. If I don't have anything nice to say, I don't say anything at all. Apparently that's not working for me. What to do?

Big weekend ahead of me, lots of temptation...baby shower, and bachelorette party! It's really going to be a test of my will power with all of the junk around. So wish me luck!